This week I got a new insight into how Autonomy can really be my Partner. The lesson was gritty.
My old blueprint often lets things go if I get a heavy dose of push back after 3 – 4 tries on getting something started. My persistence wanes and my focus goes to other things – even when I know deep down that I need to push for the outcome I want. Since I do not like to make waves and tend to be kind of a free spirit this strategy has often worked out.
Not this time – the expectation of it all working out was not going to happen. This recent experience caused me to feel defeat, fear, upset, a desire to place blame…flash feelings like a flash flood raged through me.
Thankfully Lesson 3 hit home. I AM AT CAUSE. It was not the problem of “the other guy”. It is I who must make the shift. Persist. Be a stand for what you want. That is my new mantra. Be a stand, negotiate, hold on to the vision. I realized that being Autonomous takes courage. It requires a willingness to feel alone. And a deep knowledge that I am not alone.
Mark J has said repeatedly “Dig deep” Yes, dig deep. Let the roots grow downward, deep down, and drink from the living waters that flow endlessly. Negotiate, be a stand, be willing to be out on the precipice. Believe in yourself. I must believe in myself. And be a stand within the energy of Love, always remembering that if actions are built on truth and justice, it is good to hold on.
You are not alone Diane. I love your encouragement to “hold on to the vision.” We’re in that battle together – against our old blueprints. It IS good to hold on. Mahalo!
Thank you…it was a dark few moments…and I am grateful for them…just a bit closer to the goal.
Diane thank you for sharing and validating that we all have several moments/ a few hours through the week where we feel weak and down…A dark hour or two, then move on with determination. Nobody scores touchdowns on every possession, but the best ones win the game.
It is comforting to see that I am not alone to change and this is a challenge for everybody !
Thank you for the post. I struggle with exactly the same things. It’s good to know that there are others out there fighting through. Helps take the excuses off the table. Thank you!!